Victory! May 30, 2009
Posted by David Hiran Watson in About Me, Daily Life-Walk, God.Tags: close friends, God's love, moving, SI
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I know it’s been a while since I posted, but I wanted to share what happened tonight and the past couple of days. For those of you who don’t know, one of the struggles I have is with SI – self-injury. To put it bluntly, I cut myself. I had two incidents last year, and three so far this year. I alluded to the first one in a previous post. I had two incidents over the past two days – one Thursday (May 28) night, and the other Friday (May 29) evening. In total I cut myself 26 times on each forearm.
I’m confessing all of this to say the following: God is SO loving and amazing! I shared what I did with three close friends, brothers and sister in Christ – Gabe, Mish, and Bryant. Later in the evening, God set up a meeting with Bryant, Gabe, my pastor, and myself. And through the meeting God spoke to me, showing me what I’ve been doing to myself, what I’ve been allowing to go in my life, and what needs to happen going forward for healing. There was a lot of prayer: my brothers prayed over me, and I prayed to the Father. It’s so precious to me how we can come to God as we are!
Through the prayers and counseling, it came to light that what has been going on in my life has been a spiritual battle. I say it came to light because although I’ve known that I’m in a spiritual battle, I didn’t put two and two together in regard to the depression and the negative thoughts. It didn’t connect in my mind that I’ve been tormented by a demonic spirit trying to keep me focused on the past and the negativity of disapproval. I needed to stop seeing God through the lens of my parents and who they are and how they interact with me, and see God for who He really is.
With the help of my brothers in Christ, I repented, rebuked the tormenting spirit(s), and humbled myself before God again. I have to say: it feels so relieving to humble myself before God. The weight just lifts right off my shoulders, knowing that God is in control again 
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God, through Bryant, spoke after the prayers about my spirit-man, or inner man, and how I need to feed him and make him strong again. I know it’s not going to be easy though. In fact, sitting here in front of my computer, just before I wrote this post, I was tempted to cut again! Thankfully God spoke to Gabe and Bryant and got them to take the knives I was using away. Anyway, I’m going to end here. If you’re reading this and you pray, please pray for me.
On a side note, I’m moving again; I’m moving in with my sister to a 2-bedroom apartment. I might be without internet access for a few days, so if you leave any comments I won’t get them until I have access again.
DH
Moving Tales December 14, 2008
Posted by David Hiran Watson in About Me, Everyday Life.Tags: computer monitor, moving, roommates
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So I finally moved my computer monitor from the garage to my room! Yay! Um…I suppose I should write a bit of back story, especially why this is a yay moment.
For those reading this who don’t know, I moved (again) on Nov. 29. I had finally (and permanently) moved out of my parents’ place mid-August to a 3-bedroom place. For the first month and a half I was the only one living there, and then my former landlord’s step-uncle moved in as a superintendent. A young couple then moved in to the third room in October. At any rate, things were pretty good at first, but then soured with the super, and he turned out to be fairly difficult to live with. After thought and prayer, I decided to move out and make November my last month.
The place I’m in now is a townhouse and I’m actually rooming with a friend of mine and his mom. It’s a nice place, and definitely a much better atmosphere than the old place. (Side note: I never realized before how much the presence/absence of Christ changes the atmosphere of a place.)
Back to my moving tale: while at the 3-bedroom place, I unpacked some stuff – mostly my bed, and my computer and speakers. I was even using a garbage bag for my everyday clothing, instead of hanging them up! In retrospect that made it easier to move, although it did not do much for contributing to a sense of belonging or finality of moving in. In this new place, it has been a couple of weeks, and I have not even unpacked half of my items! I have set up my bedding, and (a step further than before) hung up my everyday outerwear, although I am still using a garbage bag for the rest of my clothing. Coming back to the monitor, when I moved, I had stored some things a week earlier in my friend’s mom’s garage beside the townhouse. On the 29th, I moved everything into my room, except my computer monitor. This is why the monitor being moved into my room, and actually set up on my desk, is a big yay moment.
Now if I can only keep this momentum going, and actually speed it up…
DH
Moving November 28, 2008
Posted by David Hiran Watson in About Me.Tags: moving, my blog
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I’m moving this Saturday – Nov. 29. If you take a look at my previous posts, there was a gap from July 12 to November where I didn’t post anything. As I mentioned before, I forgot about this blog, but that was mainly due to my moving out on my own in August, and then not having internet access for a couple of months. I don’t have regular access anymore – haven’t had for November – and I won’t have it until I move. This explains the gaps between posts. I’m currently at my parent’s house, and have been there for most of November. If you’re wondering why I have my own place but am staying at my parent’s place, it’s due to the same reason I’m moving – roommate issues. Anyway, all of this is to say, for anyone reading my blog, that once I move and have regular internet access, I hope to post more.
DH
