Reflection on my day… December 1, 2008
Posted by David Hiran Watson in Daily Life-Walk, Education, Faith, God.Tags: depression, email, how God works, university
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Today has been a hard day; I am definitely still battling depression or at the least, depressive thoughts. Ever since going to uni, back in 2001, I developed and battled depression. There have been good and bad times, highs and lows, and I must say that 2008 on the whole has been both a high and low year. It has not been the lowest year I have had, but it has been one of the highest. Looking back on this battle, I am amazed at the faith God had and has produced in me. The process is still continuing, but throughout the battle I have never stagnated or backslid from God. In fact, He has been the o/One I have consistently turned to. It is like having a friend who is always right beside you. I did not always “pray” in the traditional sense, but I would instinctively talk to God whenever my mood changed or I was stressed or trying to figure things out or, in general, needed to express myself. I have to say “thank You” to God for His faithfulness!
Coming back to today, I was quite down and out this morning. After meeting with my counselor I some new perspective on the jumble of thoughts and feelings racing through me. The rest of the day has been a time of God ministering to me, giving me back my hope; hope that He is in charge and holds me in His hand. I love how God knows exactly what you need and gives that to you. Even that last sentence God reminded me of through His ministering: I was checking my email just before writing this post, and a friend of mine had sent me a forward about how it is God’s job to supply my needs according to HIS riches, and to make me happy. The forward was not saying that God is some kind of genie, but that as His child, it is not my job to try and keep myself happy via things or other people. Instead, I need to trust God and let Him take care of me.
DH
It’s been a long road… November 19, 2008
Posted by David Hiran Watson in Daily Life-Walk, Faith, God.Tags: Faith, God, how God works, Star Trek: Enterprise
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Does anyone know the title song from the tv show, “Star Trek: Enterprise”? The one that starts off with “It’s been a long road getting from there to here / It’s been a long road, but my time is finally here”? I was thinking of that for the title of this post, but changing it to “It’s been a long while…”; I haven’t worked out the rest of the lyrics yet. But I guess it HAS been a while since I last posted. Truth be known, I had forgotten about this blog (!), but was faithfully reminded about it by God through a comment to my post God is GOOD!.
It’s amazing how God works; I have a friend who uses analogies describing God’s ways as that of a master weaver, or master chef, or master baker, or (I would add) master composer. HE knows just the right time for everything and He brings you to something or through something at just when it’s needed. And what’s really ‘mind-blowing’ is to sit back and watch how that right time is not just specific to you. That just-when-it’s-needed timing is applicable to you and all of those around you. I see this in the interaction and friendship (fellowship) of brothers and sisters in Christ. I have Christian friends whom I interact with on a fairly intimate level, and many of the times I only see how much God uses them as a source of encouragement and help for me. While I know that the friendship isn’t mainly one-sided, I still can’t help feeling that God mostly uses them in my life. And yet, in every instance where I’ve voiced that to the friends in question, they have responded with the same but reversed sentiments.
All of this recognition about how God works makes me often wonder why I don’t trust Him more. Surely, even if I’m struggling through an issue, and I’m not sure how God is going to resolve it, I can at least look back to the past and draw strength from how God has come through for me every time I’ve needed Him.
DH
