I then decided to transform dEhiN’s Posterous into dEhiN’s Mediacast and make it a blog space just for my media posts (podcasts, vlogs, etc.). Of course that didn’t work either. And now I’ve decided to use the Posterous platform and create my new blog. Why?

Because I like the Posterous platform.

For the past two months I’ve had on the back of my mind the desire to start a new blog. I even posted here that I was moving. But I hadn’t found a good platform yet. Though, to be honest, that was partly due to my lack of researching blogging platforms!

But it all worked in the end. As time went on, the idea to start a new blog morphed. Instead of just blogging about my life, I also came to want a place to share my creative ideas from time to time. And just earlier tonight I was visiting dEhiN’s Mediacast, and saw that Posterous had made changes to their platform!

It’s still a blogging platform. And Posterous still allows embedding of media into posts. As well as emailing new posts for quick posting. But now they are using the terminology “Spaces” – you create a public or private space, not a blog! And I love that concept. It’s very up-to-date I think, and especially integrated. Sure, technically it’s the same as a blog. But it evokes (in me at least) the mental image of a blank canvas where I can utilize all the colours of the colour spectrum, not just the primary colours – describing things and posting using text.

The second but actually main reason I decided to start a new blog is this: for me this current blog (dEhiN’s Blog) has become associated with contemplations and musings I had during a struggling point in my life. I am not fully out of the forest I’ve been in for the past decade or so. But I am much nearer to the edge, I can definitely see the light of the meadow beyond clearer than ever before. And so, while I may still have posts about struggles and pain and hardship I’m facing, including thoughts related to this particular forest, I also will have posts of newness and hope and other things. And just as how in the non-digital world, it is good to physically and materially mark new stages in your life, I think it is just as good digitally.

So with that, I bid adieu to dEhiN’s Blog. Dear blog, you have served me well. May your archived posts forever remain a testament to a period in my life, and serve as a guide perhaps, or light, to others. Well…at least for as long as WordPress.com keeps this blog in its archives!

DH

It’s neat how she was also thinking of me, and how we hadn’t talked in a while. I see this as a movement of God, when the same thought occurs in two different people at the same time.

I also realize that I and my friends are now in a stage of life where I’m going to have to rely on the phone, texts, Facebook, and other forms of social media to stay connected. Of course I’ll have to balance face-to-face contact with technological-based contact.

On a side note: I am hoping to blog more. I have also uploaded my first video to Youtube and am planning to share more through Youtube, podcasts, vlogs, etc. Of course how much and often all this gets done remains to be seen .

DH

With all these lives passing by
I look up and am reminded
Of a whorehouse
With all the prostitutes rising from their seats
To entice the one who has newly entered
Showing all the illicit wares available
But hiding the cost until the hook is firmly in the cheek
I am supposed to be in one of the most multi-ethnic cities in the world
Standing here on the longest road in the heart of downtown
And I see all these people
And I think
If it weren’t for this random passing in time
This convergence of my life and the stranger who walks past
I wouldn’t know the world contained such a person
Who has a name and a life and loved ones

And even now a person of the street
Sits beside me
And cries out for help
Yet none help him
Still he wishes each a nice day
Until another untouchable
Gives up his half-smoked cigarette
And I think
It’s time for this cold individuality to end

DH

The first thing is that my birthday passed (!) and I’m now a whopping 28 years old. Yay me! The second thing is that my counselling sessions with Augustine have been very helpful and I have been seeing some good understanding and growth occur as fruit.

I’m sitting right now in a subway, and I have much going through my mind. I want to write it all and yet I don’t. I feel like for the first time in my life, I’m realising I can just be, without needing a purpose to drive me. At least in this specific action of writing my next blog post. I don’t have to convey a predetermined point; the act of writing, and, in an abstracting sense, the act of relating and living, creates a purpose.

About 3 weeks ago I started counselling (again) through Christian Counselling Services. The progress has been good but slow. It’s like any and all ‘breakthroughs’ that occur during the sessions become a distant memory and fade away during the week.

You see, I meet my counsellor, Augustine, on Fridays. And on Sundays, after church in the morning, I usually spend time with my mentor, Eric. We talk about God, and he’s a big source of spiritual encouragement for me. So for the past 2 weeks or so my weekends have been a good dose of encouragement and Godly positivity in regard to my life and problems.

But then during the week what I wrote above happens! So I definitely need this cycle to stop.

Unfortunately, I approached it from a strict academic view. I was learning it for the sake of knowing many languages. In the process I wasn’t enjoying it, and never progressed far. That’s partially why I started learning Tamil in 1996/7 and haven’t progressed beyond a beginner!

But now I’m re-interested in learning new languages for the joy of it. My plan is to learn bit and pieces at a time. And as long as I’m consistent, I’m not going to worry about focusing on one specific language until I “master it.”

So currently I’m learning Tamil, French, and Spanish. I want to start learning German as well, although I might not start it right away.

PS. If you want to know what resources I’m using, comment below and ask, and I’ll respond.

And I thought, “why?” Why should it be like the movies? Why this societal fascination that real life should be more like what we find in the movies? Or, perhaps, why aren’t the (mainstream) movies in this society more a reflection of reality?

Maybe because we are all wanting to get away from life? Or at least hide from life? Why? Maybe because life sucks? But as Christians shouldn’t life be to the full? So then should Christians not desire for life to be like the movies? Would Jesus watch movies if He were walking the world today? Or at least, would He desire life to be like the scripted template found in so many movies, like most of us desire on some level whether we admit it or not?

Anyway, these are just thoughts that go through my head sometimes.

It’s really neat how God has led them and is still leading them. Father, keep them safe in the palm of Your hand. Amen.

It goes against this society’s focus on independence, since to say I submit to a King is to say I surrender my will to His. But when you know the King that Jesus is, you know that you’re surrendering yourself unto a freedom, not a bondage.

Majesty
Worship His Majesty
Unto Jesus be all Honour, Glory, and Praise
Majesty
Kingdom Authority
Flows from His throne, unto His own
His anthem raise

Amen