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Moving November 28, 2008

Posted by David Hiran Watson in About Me.
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I’m moving this Saturday – Nov. 29. If you take a look at my previous posts, there was a gap from July 12 to November where I didn’t post anything. As I mentioned before, I forgot about this blog, but that was mainly due to my moving out on my own in August, and then not having internet access for a couple of months. I don’t have regular access anymore – haven’t had for November – and I won’t have it until I move. This explains the gaps between posts. I’m currently at my parent’s house, and have been there for most of November. If you’re wondering why I have my own place but am staying at my parent’s place, it’s due to the same reason I’m moving – roommate issues. Anyway, all of this is to say, for anyone reading my blog, that once I move and have regular internet access, I hope to post more.

DH

Crying over spilled milk… November 25, 2008

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Why do some people cry over spilled milk? I mean that in the figurative sense, but it is very frustrating! Instead of responding with the recognition that it is a trivial thing, and that the milk can be replaced, these people insist on putting the milk above – as in more important than – the person who spilled the milk. WHY?!?!

I suppose one possibility is a sense of insecurity within that person who is doing the crying. This would be akin to one of the reasons why some people horde: growing up they developed a sense of insecurity and fear of going without, so they horde as a security blanket. Coming back to the spilled milk people, what is just as frustrating is trying to tell the person who is crying that it’s not a big deal. I usually receive responses of justification as to why it’s not bad that they are crying over spilled milk. The frustrating part is trying to make them see that I’m not berating them for caring about spilled milk. Whether the spilling was accidental or not, you still have X amount of money ‘down the drain’. But that doesn’t justify putting spilled milk at a higher priority level than a human being. It doesn’t justify indirectly giving the spiller a message that they shouldn’t, even accidentally, spill milk.

This also doesn’t make sense as a Christian, and especially when all the parties involved are Christians. God has promised to be our security, to take care of us. The famous Psalm 23, which both Christians and non-Christians know, speaks of that very promise. Yet, if the Lord is our Shepherd, then why are afraid of ‘wasting’ inconsequential things? Don’t get me wrong – for those whom that cup of milk was their last cup, the milk wasn’t so inconsequential an item. Yet, even in that case, I think that people should have more worth on each of our internal lists of what we hold dear than milk (or any other material object for that matter).

DH

Warring motivation November 24, 2008

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Have you ever felt like you are (at least) two different people? Or perhaps more apropos, that within you resides multiple, polar aspects to your personality? (On a side note, I have always liked that word – apropos. :) ). I suppose the word polar implies two opposites, like the North and South Poles, so multiple polar aspects might be an oxymoron. And I am not talking about clinical MPD, but rather different desires or motivations within you that don’t reconcile to each other, and shouldn’t coexist together but they do. The interesting phenomenon to behold is how a particular motivation wins out over the others. As far as I can tell, the external circumstance – more specifically, the people around me and the state they are in – either plays the sole factor or a major factor in which motivation(s) arise to the surface. This same factor usually determines which motivation also rules the others.

For example, even though I have an artistic side and a fairly strong right brain, I feel more comfortable expressing my creativity in safe situations. This is partly due to past experiences where the creative within me has been derided. There are times where I have a creative moment, and want to express it. This could be a desire to be dramatic, to draw, create music, dance or creatively write. Yet, depending on who I’m with, I might not feel safe to express that creativity for fear that I will be mocked and derided. Most of the time, in these situations, the fear wins out, and the motivation to suppress the creative desire rules me.

This is also true if the company I’m in has never seen me express myself creatively through a specific medium. The company perhaps is not the deriding type, and yet I will still find it hard to overcome the motivation to suppress my creativity for reasons of fear.

DH

It’s been a long road… November 19, 2008

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Does anyone know the title song from the tv show, “Star Trek: Enterprise”? The one that starts off with “It’s been a long road getting from there to here / It’s been a long road, but my time is finally here”? I was thinking of that for the title of this post, but changing it to “It’s been a long while…”; I haven’t worked out the rest of the lyrics yet. But I guess it HAS been a while since I last posted. Truth be known, I had forgotten about this blog (!), but was faithfully reminded about it by God through a comment to my post God is GOOD!.

It’s amazing how God works; I have a friend who uses analogies describing God’s ways as that of a master weaver, or master chef, or master baker, or (I would add) master composer. HE knows just the right time for everything and He brings you to something or through something at just when it’s needed. And what’s really ‘mind-blowing’ is to sit back and watch how that right time is not just specific to you. That just-when-it’s-needed timing is applicable to you and all of those around you. I see this in the interaction and friendship (fellowship) of brothers and sisters in Christ. I have Christian friends whom I interact with on a fairly intimate level, and many of the times I only see how much God uses them as a source of encouragement and help for me. While I know that the friendship isn’t mainly one-sided, I still can’t help feeling that God mostly uses them in my life. And yet, in every instance where I’ve voiced that to the friends in question, they have responded with the same but reversed sentiments.

All of this recognition about how God works makes me often wonder why I don’t trust Him more. Surely, even if I’m struggling through an issue, and I’m not sure how God is going to resolve it, I can at least look back to the past and draw strength from how God has come through for me every time I’ve needed Him.

DH